I have been stressed, anxious and depressed for almost more than a decade. I kept suffering and denied any medications for this. I wanted to find a natural way to get out of this and enjoy my life. I read more books on those topics and downloaded a number of resources from the internet to learn how to be relaxed, calm and at peace. “Let Go” is one of the most widely suggested topics to eliminate stress and anxiety.
So, what does a “let go” really mean? “Let Go” means letting the resistance (to anything) to go. “Let Go” does not mean that “I don’t want it”. “Let Go” means that “I am okay if it happens or not” and hence I thought “let go” means being in a neutral state which means that I am not bothered by it and my state of being does not depend on it.
I gained all the theoretical knowledge and every time when I was reading about that, I thought I understood but I was not able to implement. If anything that troubled me, I would try to let go, I would try to teach my mind to not give importance to that but it wouldn’t work out. The more I tried to brush them off, the more they stayed in my mind. The more I tried to stop them, the more I got attached to it. I thought letting the bothering ones be as they are (without trying to change) , wouldn’t hurt me but still they got back to me with more intense attachment.
I failed again and again when trying to let go. One day, it occurred to me why did I want to let go? I am not trying to let go of all my thoughts or moments. I am trying to let go of only the thoughts that bother me. Any thoughts that I feel good and comfortable with – I never try to let them go. This is exactly where I went wrong. I cannot hold on to a few thoughts and let go of a few thoughts. I can hold all of them and let go of all of them.
I should not choose. The moment my mind judges, I am losing my ability to let go. Letting go is not something that can be done based on the outcome of my judgment of a thought. I am attached to the thought or thinking as soon as I judge. “Letting go” cannot be done using my mind as no logical mind should be involved in this process.
“Let Go” is a state of being. “Let Go” can be done only when body, mind and soul are connected. The moment they are not connected, I get into stress mode. So, I made efforts to connect them and I was able to let go. “To be clear, I didn’t intend to let go. But when my body, mind, and soul are truly aligned, letting go happens naturally, as a consequence”.